|Driving through the mountains in February. GLOOMY!|
This is the time of year I consider a new career, a new house, a new yard, a new wardrobe, a fresh challenge.
This is the time of year I look for ways to pursue further education, be it a doctoral degree or courses that will enhance my counselling practice.
This is the time of year I longingly look at possible places to visit in the summer; whether for relaxation or professional development.
This is the time of year I spend too much time and energy looking at job postings and wonder if it's time to try something else, or keep doing what I do - somewhere else.
I'll not let go of the husband, kids, grandkids, other relatives as well as friends. It's not relationships that are disturbing my internal balance.
I will the gloomy gray to transform to sunny colours. Transformation comes slowly. It's still raining outside, it's still dull. I must be careful to not travel down a road well travelled before. The road of dissatisfaction. My blessings are evident, the good in my life is before me and behind me.
It is the here and now that are the challenge. Ah, but it's in the here and now that we do our best work (such a therapeutic thought). I'll do what I've done before. I'll consult with my Reverend, my friends, my family. They'll do their usual eye roll (yes I can see them roll through the phone). My daughter will exclaim her usual....."Moooooommmm, you're NOT moving to______(fill in the blank)". My loved ones know my seasons.
Eventually the gloom will dissipate. I'll either make some moves towards change, or stay where I am; two choices, right or right.
|Vancouver in February|
Anybody out there know what I'm talking about? Anybody else out there, looking for the illumination of spring?