"I shall delight myself in the abundance of Peace".
I am not by nature an optimistic person. At least I've never thought so. Recently I'm wondering if perhaps what I've judged as pessimism may have been an abundance of anxiety. So imagine my joy when I rediscovered Psalm 37:11 which in its entirety says, 'But the humble shall inherit the land, and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.'
It's been decades since depression along with his sidekick anxiety, took residence in my mind, heart, and body. Today they play a minuscule role in my life, but have no doubt, they continue to lurk. Their biggest impact seems to be a limit on peace. I mustn't get too calm, optimistic, joyful, etc., because above all d and a are lurking. Sounds silly I suppose, but even with all the work I've done, their remnants linger.
This week, during my quiet time (I'm reading about peace these days...after all school is starting) my scripture was Psalm 37:11. It was one of those THIS VERSE IS FOR ME experiences. I'm certain I shall be forgiven for my paraphrase, 'I shall delight in the abundance of peace.' I love how it sounds. It brings peace and grounding to my core. What a gift!
Just over two years ago, on August 22, 2010, I wrote my first blog post. Perhaps one of my greatest blogging benefits has been an increased knowing of myself. Preparing a post that represents my heart, forces me to look into my heart to be sure I have understanding. It has been said that in order to really understand a concept you must be able to teach it to someone else. That's what blogging has been for me. A forced re look at my thoughts: do I really believe that? think that? want this idea to represent me? It's been a growth process. Blogging brings me clarity. It lets me grab those ideas that are floating around my head and bring them into focus. That understanding brings me joy. Sharing my ideas with you reminds me I'm not alone.
So, for now, I shall cling to my gift...the delight that comes with the abundance of peace. That shall be the foundation for my new school year. What about you?