Saturday, September 1, 2012

141st Post - Abundance

"I shall delight myself in the abundance of Peace". 

I am not by nature an optimistic person. At least I've never thought so. Recently I'm wondering if perhaps what I've judged as pessimism may have been an abundance of anxiety. So imagine my joy when I rediscovered Psalm 37:11 which in its entirety says, 'But the humble shall inherit the land, and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.' 

It's been decades since depression along with his sidekick anxiety, took residence in my mind, heart, and body. Today they play a minuscule role in my life, but have no doubt, they continue to lurk. Their biggest impact seems to be a limit on peace. I mustn't get too calm, optimistic, joyful, etc., because above all d and a are lurking. Sounds silly I suppose, but even with all the work I've done, their remnants linger. 

This week, during my quiet time (I'm reading about peace these days...after all school is starting) my scripture was Psalm 37:11. It was one of those THIS VERSE IS FOR ME experiences. I'm certain I shall be forgiven for my paraphrase, 'I shall delight in the abundance of peace.' I love how it sounds.  It brings peace and grounding to my core. What a gift!

Just over two years ago, on August 22, 2010, I wrote my first blog post. Perhaps one of my greatest  blogging benefits has been an increased knowing of myself. Preparing a post that represents my heart, forces me to look into my heart to be sure I have understanding. It has been said that in order to really understand a concept you must be able to teach it to someone else. That's what blogging has been for me. A forced re look at my thoughts: do I really believe that? think that? want this idea to represent me? It's been a growth process. Blogging brings me clarity. It lets me grab those ideas that are floating around my head and bring them into focus. That understanding brings me joy. Sharing my ideas with you reminds me I'm not alone. 

So, for now, I shall cling to my gift...the delight that comes with the abundance of peace. That shall be the foundation for my new school year. What about you?   

Happy Saturday!


  1. Being neither an optimistic or peace-full person, I recognize a reality in your thoughts. I'm glad your own journey of discovery through you blog has been helpful, Carol. And I do hope this coming year at school will be a good one, for you and your students.

    Blessings and Bear hugs.

  2. Hi Carol .. thankfully being an optimistic person, and learning to be at peace with the world and thus myself ...

    Blogging opens up new doors doesn't it - congratulations on 2 years .. and I love that Pooh photo and quote ...

    Cheers Hilary

  3. I thought it was just me who suffered from d and a lurking in the background at all times... They actually lurk in the pit of my stomach! Thank you for sharing your view of blogging. I suspect it's the same for me. Sometimes blog posts are impersonal, event-led but for those inner-thought ones I do stop and reflect on how I want to be viewed by others before I post and that's got to be therapeutic, hasn't it.

  4. Hi Carol .. I'm sure I've commented here - but it's got lost by Blogger .. so this is really a test one -

    Thanks for commenting over on my latest post .. cheers Hilary

  5. I can understand that d and a lurking around. I'm glad you've found so much joy in blogging! I share your views in many ways. And I simply LOVE the Winnie the Pooh and Piglet picture. I have loved Pooh since childhood and it always makes me smile to see the Pooh characters.

    Hope you are feeling well and have a good weekend ahead Carol. Take care!